life has never been simple at all. Everyone has their own weakness in their own life. for mine, I can’t thanks someone gratfully cause I dunno how it jus stuck in my mouth e moment I wanna say it out. that actually able to lead to the misunderstanding of one another. is awful thou, I wish n hope I never had such problem. well as I said life is never gonna b simple at all. I really don’t wish to have anymore quarrels going on. I jus wan peacefully go thru my life but I jus don’t think that’s gonna happen at all. what do they mean by we didn’t contact them when is weekends? didn’t we look for them every weekends unless we all quarrelled? jus because of this one month of confinement and didn’t go eat with u guys and only pass one weekend after tt one month of baby.u were saying that we didn’t look for u to have dinner or lunch? isn’t is ridiculous? really hilerious. seriously, what else more could I say? u already tell someone all my negative view of yours so u want that person to also hates me? well if that is so I can’t help it den. u never ever try to really understand me, u only want and choose to know me as someone who is rude and stubborn. in life there’s lots of choices is really up to u to choose. but there are Also things that we couldn’t choose at all. our personality and behaviour. is something we born with and live with. jus like everyday having abalone for dinner suddenly u asked them to change eating beansprouts everyday. how r they gonna accept it? they have been eating that for years. and is years! personality behaviour is build up since we were in moms stomach. we can’t blame this and that because is our life and is fated for these stuff. u can choose to cover up things and not telling truth. choose to have another behaviour infront of someone else. but ended up in anyway e truth is still e truth is all what u have been acting. perm fated matters is not gonna change. if we are Ble to change personality and behaviour so easily den we don’t need any horoscope or ba zi thingy.

I’m happy for what u did for my son when is baby shower. but I know that’s for my son. and I realise that I’m not even one of u guys. u don’t treat me like one, I jus seems to b ur someone who give u someone and troubles. u don’t call me up for any dinner! never once! I don’t like to speak to u guys cause it always ended up I’m in wrong whereby actually is due to miscommunication and we doesn’t know each other behaviour attitude and thoughts. money is really important but family happiness is important too. if u still thinking that after all this I jus wanna barge in for money den so be it. I can’t get a fk abt it anymore. is no longer my concern, cos u jus like to assume and cfm it urself without finding e real truth. so what’s e point? even explaination won’t help. if that’s e case den don’t whine and kp behind my back. yes I might not b able to nice to speak to. I might have hot temper but doesn’t means that I couldn’t speak up. is jus a thing that I couldn’t control when I really say my feelings out. I prefer typing. as I won’t b so emotional when I express it out. I’m not good in speech either. I’m good in speech for sales and quarrels but not in others. I’m actually rather quiet person den a noisy y. jus that I always felt leftout and I started speaking. realizing that I’m rude cos I cut conversations. but If I never did that I’m gonna b left out for more then an hour.

wish personalitycould change. hopes are jus beyond reaching.nowadays backstabbing bad mouthing spys two sided comodo are all over e place. who shld I really trust other den my parents? I don’t wanna tell them how I feel as I don’t wan them to worry for me. is my own problem solve it myself~

I’m done with it. seriously I’m tired for all this while. who wil save me upon d hell?

-huix2
loves needed madly

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